Since taking some time to deal with my mental health at the start of last year and feeling so much better after having my operation, I've been doing really well. I thought that I had it all under control, but allowing myself to get run down and yet still heaping more onto my plate has really started to take its toll, which I had to admit this week. While I fight anxiety and depression a daily basis, they do sometimes get the best of me and this is what has been happening more often recently.
I've started to let things slide a bit, including my blog, which isn't ideal as this is something that proved so helpful the last time I was really struggling with my mental health. I've been putting the focus on what is good for other people rather than what would be helpful for myself, which is exactly what made me so ill previously.
Even though I've known that I was starting to struggle again, it took a huge anxiety attack on Monday for me to actually admit it and realise that I need to deal with it. Previously, I wouldn't have been so open about it and would have quietly tried to do things to make it better, but this doesn't help. With recent events in the news, I think it shows that it is important to have an open and honest conversation about mental health, so I thought putting it down in a blog was probably the best option.